well...

i have rumors going on in class..
i'm not sure whether i should be happy or not..
i don't want these rumors to ruin our friendship but since we're always together..
argh.i do my homework beside him during recess..
how i wish sometimes we can stop,people would not spread rumors and we just work to a perfect friendship together..
BUTTTTTTTT!
I'll never let our friendship lead to a relationship.well,at least now,no.cause i'm only 13 and..it'll ruin our friendship.just so afraid that the feelings for him is just the brotherly love he showers me with.
though i'm only 13,i've been through quite a lot on this so i'm very sceptical about relationships.just very afraid that it'll be like the first relationship I've been in which was a big mistake,last year.obviously the boy was an insensitive,mommy's boy.but i thought that things may change.in the end,we broke up because of his so called 'jealousy'.there was another boy,who claimed that he liked me since i was 11.i didn't know him then.i friendzoned him probably because i had someone in mind.when he took the initiative i didn't accept.probably i don't know him well enough and he is this famous basketballer and is quite a flirt.then he asked me again.seeing that he's really sincere,i accepted.then it turns out that i was wrong.he flirts with so many girls and my 'best friend'.well,this 'best friend' of mine started to date my first boyfriend after we broke up.she's always flirting with the basketballer too.thank god i'm not in the same school as her.
unlike these 2 'jerks' and 'bad boys',this guy is totally different.he's sensitive,nice to everyone,friendly,cute,funny.well,he doesn't flirt but this particular girl in class always flirts with him.but i'm not worried.because he dislikes her and when she tries to talk or flirt,he'll try to find me and mouth to me,"help me".of course i would pretend i need to go somewhere with him and pull him away.well,i really don't know what is it gonna turn out like.lets hope for the best!:/
but i hope it's just siblings love.
wish me luck!(: